Friday, September 25, 2009

a fork in the road...

Another turning point, A fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist - directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test and don't ask why.
It's not a question, But a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs and still frames in your mind.
Hang them on a shelf in good health and good times
Tattoos and memories and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.
It's something unpredictable but in the end it's right.
i hope we have the time of our lives.

Lately I have been feeling like I have this huge decision to make. God has, more than once, laid things out for me pertaining to many paths I have chosen in my life. And all I can gather now - is HE is pretty much YELLING at me that I am going the wrong way. Every step I take there seems to be these small paths leading in other directions. I keep hearing him say "Opps honey, you missed the last chance, so here's another". Yet I continue to just ignore what I know He wants for me. I keep telling myself that if I hold out long enough maybe the path I want .... will connect to the path He wants for me.

It's like driving a car that is falling apart.... oh how you LOVE that car .... first an oil leak, a crack in the windshield, flat tires, hoses bust.....and then .... sputter..... it finally just breaks down and of course with my luck it's when I am left stranded. If only .... if only I had watched the signs and worried more about the DRIVER (that's me), than a car that obviously just had no potential to begin with.

Why do I choose to hibernate in a job, a love, a friend, poor health when I know in the long run I could have spared TIME and just made a change myself. Yes, some of it was WORTH all the while.....but I wonder what I have missed out on....

So this ones to the fork ..... the fork in my road

(sometimes feels like a fork in my eye)

Maybe soon I will be strong enough to
veer off the main path and RUN RUN RUN into what he has waiting for me!!

I am actually smiling at this moment thinking about how free it will be to REALLY listen to HIM for once instead of myself!

(I envision birds chirping, music playing, people laughing, and ME .....SMILING AND HAPPY......FOREVER!)